Sunday, March 30, 2008


Guys. I'm sorry. I am really sorry. For not keeping those photos and videos safe. I am sorry.
Real sorry.


Given the choices of the world and myself, I chose myself. I chose to hate myself. I've never hated anyone else in my life. It has always been me.


feared @ 6:07 AM


Monday, March 17, 2008


I swear that this is gonna be the last time I am ever gonna fail my math test(I know I will fail. I am just way too lag and I totally have no idea of what I am doing). I will ensure this by seriously putting in the hours. I swear to god. Yes. I swear to god. My first aim will be to just pass my common test. Pass means a D(at least). Yes. And in order to achieve that aim, I'll treat everyday (from tomorrow onwards) like there's math test 2 days later and study my head off. I'll put in not just twice but many many more times the effort for math, than what I put in for other subs(I think I am probably only putting in 2 times more which is NOT enough).

Yes. Competition is near. But I can cope. I CAN. I am working towards the goal, my (will come true)dream of giving Mr Eng my math test results, thanking him for always looking after me all these years. Really. I feel that the person I have let down most is him. He always think how I can improve, talk to me, believe in me, and yet I betrayed his trust again and again.

But Mr Eng, trust me, the problem doesn't lie in A + B = C. The problem lies in me. My lack of enthusiasm towards math. I will treat math like basketball and will try my best in it starting from tml after school. Yes. At least one hour of math EVERYDAY. AT LEAST.


I WILL PASS ALL MY FUTURE MATH TESTS. (will take effect from may's common test)


Ps. I will give myself nice passes for all my common tests sub as birthday present. Yes. I will.


feared @ 10:57 PM



Stupid headache and stupid giddiness. RAWR! Tml is math test and I didn't go for math lesson today. I suck. Stupid headache and stupid giddiness. RAWR! Bad cramps again. RAWR! I DON'T WANT TO FAIL MATH TEST AGAIN.


Math + Fangyu = No affinity



3 sms a day? BIG SIGH. Neh mind. Drown myself in books(If I could, I would). I MISS THE GIRLS!


feared @ 6:15 PM