Read this extract taken from the newspaper. I think it's absurd! Absolutely ridiculous! It's easy for one to write out and differentiate "seat" from "sit". But how well can you exactly differentiate them by merely using your sense of hearing? If it's really the case of this receptionist being unable to pronoun "seat" and "sit" then why is it that she happened to pronoun all "seat" as "sit" and vice versa. If it's really the case of someone with bad English, shouldn't she pronoun sit and seat to be the same?


Oh well, one seems capable of writing anything in order to receive responses from the readers. What a pity.

feared @ 9:42 PM

Haiz. I am really studying hard now. But sometimes I feel really mentally drained. Like as though studying zaps away my life slowly. Feel like it's so hard to even breathe, to take in fresh air.


Showed my dad my progress report. Guess he wasn't in good mood cos his reaction differs drastically from the previous. He shouted at me and nearly tore my progress report. Hai. He refused to sign the letter from Mr Mark Low informing him that I ain't doing well for common test.


I don't know. My parents deny everything now. Deny how I stayed up to 4am daily for 2 weeks before common tests. Hai. I deserve it man. Blame me for not doing tutorials and assignments regularly. Hai.

feared @ 11:50 PM

Gosh. This sucks. My mum is being unreasonable. SHE DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO BRING THE DEEP FRYER TO SCHOOL COS IT'S NEW. WTH?!? I am damn piss. 2 things. One was the incident with my mum, the other is N T U C, BLOODY HELL. What kinda service is this? I am seriously pissed with that cashier's attitude.


Cos we bought lotsa stuff so I wanted extra plastic bags. Okay, I was a bit greedy and I asked"Xiao jie, ni ke yi gei wo wu ge zhi dai ma?(Miss, can you give me 5 plastic bags?)", she replied me with a "Bu ke yi gei(Cannot give)." So I was thinking maybe 5 is too much, I said" na ni neng gei wo ji ge ma?(Can you give me a few?)." She replied in quite a rude tone and without even looking at me"Ni gen shui mai?(Who you buy from?)" WTH! I was damn piss. I said "Gen ni men la!" SHE BLOODY HELL JUST IGNORE ME AND THINK THAT I AM INVISIBLE. Yes. I may be young and my spending capacity may not be large, just wait till I grow up man. I just feel it's an irony that N T U C is promoting all these good service crap when their staff ain't even properly trained.


Pardon me if I was rude, I am seriously angry with that woman's attitude. ARGH.



TODAY IS A SUCKY DAY MAN!

feared @ 8:37 PM

I was so touched by my dad yesterday. First he waited really long for me just to fetch me from school. Next, he could still joke even after he saw my results. He's changed. He seemed to be taking on a different approach to teach me, one that allows my independence and self discipline to roam free.


Yes. Trust me. I have never been so sure before. I will do well for Promos. I will. I will start studying hard now, focusing what I should be doing in life now, if not for myself, I'll do it for my parents. Yes.

feared @ 5:40 AM

I DISLIKE MATH VA! REALLY DISLIKE IT! DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYMORE. NOW IS LIKE 2 AM ALREADY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ):

feared @ 1:53 AM

This is so gross. I HATE COUGHING. I HATE BEING SICK. Because of my stupid cough, I cant eat EVERYTHING and ANYTHING sweet, that includes all strawberry cheesecake related stuff and ice cream related stuff and almost all pastry. ): I cant eat anything chicken or food that contain egg, that means a lot of types cake. ): ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!


I have sorethroat. So I cant eat heaty stuff, which is all the fried food and oily food.



BEING ILL SUCKS!

feared @ 10:34 PM

3 on 3 basketball challenge is now on in NJC! All you have to do is to grab a form, fill in the particulars of your team mates and pay merely 10 bucks per team to the bball booth set up at the canteen. You'll need 5 ppl and at least 2 girls in a team. Anyone in NJ, even teachers are welcome to join, that too include cai fan(veg stall) uncle!! So what are you waiting for? There are attractive prizes to be won for the top 3 placings! Grab your copy of the form NOW. ((:

feared @ 10:03 PM

Little kid throws tantrum only when someone can see. -.-

feared @ 11:18 AM

Someone asked me"Why you so loner one?". Maybe, maybe not. I am loner when I am with a group of people whom I aint close to. What do you expect me to be, besides being a loner when all my classes consist of almost all different people. My bio class has all the science stream peeps, 03 peeps blah, my econs class has a mixture of science stream and arts stream, my GP class has all the arts ppl, math and geog classes have different mixture of science and arts stream ppl. Worse still, I don't even get much chance to be in the same classes as most of my classmates, or rather those I hang along better with(i.e. Gloria).


You don't expect me to socialise with new people and try to talk to them like we're good friends or sth because, that's just not me. I only do those things when I have to, like when I am OGL or sth. Kinda fake huh? I just find it fun when you know someone as a new girl/boy at the same time as everyone else(i.e. during orientation), not someone whom you have seen for around 3 years already.


The biggest problem is, I don't treat many as a friend of mine. To really count the number of friends I have, I probably have less than 25. Most of them are basketballers and those from my class. The rest are acquaintances. Those hi bye kind. Probably that too explains why I like to hang around at the grandstand. Whenever I am free, I will drop by there. It's the place where I feel like myself, where my smiles come from deep within me, where everything I say doesn't have to go through much thinking. I love this carefree feeling. Yea, really love it.


Finally cleared the little problem I had with 2 ppl. Hahahhas! Yea. I call you all the 2 ppl:P Feels like a really huge load being lifted off me. Thank you to seniors and 2 ppl. Hahhas. Don't worry la, I will try not to be emo again. Or at least, I will say out my thoughts when I am. :l Hahhas!


Now, all I have to do is to study everyday away like it's A levels tml and really pull up my socks. (Ohh, purple socks! Damn.. I feel like eating soursop. No pun intended. -.- lol) STUDY STUDY! Shall frequent msn less these days. :DD I am not scared about not being able to catch up with bball during this period of absence cos I know I will have two 2 tutors teaching me centre skills! WHOOTS~ Lol. You all better teach me huh. You know who you are. :P

feared @ 10:16 AM

Perhaps, I think I should explain for my behavior recently? Maybe my quietness is partly due to my sickness, but I can tell you, being sick contributes a very small part to why I start to keep quiet, to lose interest in almost everything.


I have lost the motivations to talk. I don't see a need in talking. If I don't talk, then I probably will never have the chance to feel left out. I only talk to people whom I feel comfortable with in school and that aint many. Reasons? I don't know, or rather I thought they are pretty obvious why I don't want to feel left out.


I have tried. I acted like a girl who knows no boundary to her mouth and actions, acted crazy. I've hoped that can make them forget about me being an IP, about me being different from them. Apparently, it did not happen. Instead, the gap between us widened. I hate to say this but they've made me know the true meaning of being left out. I never get to know anything. Yes, useless. I am useless. I have lost my sense of worth in it, lost my value in it and the value I had for it.

feared @ 6:35 PM

I seemed to have lost a very important part of my life. That is not caused by teachers nor by my results, but the significance and expectations I had towards the people. Not anymore. I feel like a stranger, like a talking mask.

feared @ 12:18 AM

Since Wednesday, my fever never subside fully for a complete day, all that happened was that it merely subsided for a couple of hours, not quite yet enough to cheer me up. And thanks to blogger’s effort for eating up my really long blog post. (Damn, I have become really sacarstic.) **** blogger! (Note that **** is symbolic)


Currently, I have a few life support items. Some which I have to consume aka my cough syrup, sore throat lozenges, cold relief tablets, paracetomol(aka panadol) and “to subside fever above 38.5 degree Celsius” tablets. One more life support item, which I have to slot onto my fingers almost all the time, is my glove. Somehow my fingers are really vulnerable to coldness and they turn cold very easily. Once cold, my fingers will start turning blue and slowly numbed. That’s kinda sucky isn’t it? What to do? I am so prone to illness.


My sis was really nice to me for the first morning when I just had fever. She cooked me porridge, fed me medicine, etc. Was really thankful to her. Then, the bad news came. My sis got the fever from me. I’ve cried rivers, seas and oceans and really hated myself when her temperature reached 40.0 degree Celsius. Begged my mum and dad to send her to the hospital but as usual, they QUARRELED, and finally decided that the queue in the hospital will be horrendous so they sent her to a nearby clinic instead. Doctor said she’s suffering from fever caused by virus not bacteria and prescribed her medicine that totaled up to 72bucks. Gosh. Let’s minus the rental cost and the cost to patronise the doctor which I estimate to be around 30bucks. The damn medicine has only 10 tablets and cost 42 bucks. Which also meant that it’s 4.2 bucks for one puny tablet. GOSH.


What’s happening to the prices of medicine? Is this sign of inflation? GOSH. G ST merely increased by 2 percent and you see vendors increasing their prices by 20-25 percent. What is this? (Whatever I am gonna say later is only an example I am bringing in and I meant no offense.)


M acdonald sure knows how to make use of situations. You see that advertisement with this old lady selling tissues. Yep. If you eat at hawker centers or coffee shops, sometimes you will come across old man or lady selling you a few packets of tissues for a buck. Now, they raised it to 1.2 buck. WHAT IS THIS? I mean by buying the tissue is a form of d onation, you mean even d onation will have to increase as G ST increase? CRAP.


Most of these blind, crippled old people(I meant no offense) are under one organisation. This organisation will give them the goods(tissues) everyday and drop them off at different locations. My mum once seen a bunch of these people coming down from a van(to eat or sth? I don’t know). LOL. That makes me wonder how much those disabled people actually get from every 1.2buck that they collect. ( N KF. lol)


Okay, back on track, oh, which reminds me of my school track. It’s gonna be rebuilt. They are gonna fix a synthetic field. Oh well.. Kinda sucky, how do I run in the morning when there is no more track? Eww.


Woah.. My blog post is kinda long. Gonna end soon. I realise how much I have drifted away from myself being ill. Hhhahas. Yea. Guess I will have to go to school tommorow even if I were to have fever. Hai. So sucky. Reach school and you cant even play basketball or run about. If need be, I may have to whip out my gloves and slot them onto my fingers.


To those people who possess one of those common S ingaporean traits of being kia si, fret not! I will try to isolate myself from the society tml. Yea. If need be, I will wear a tracking device on me, probably those trackable by GPRS so that you people can use your hp GPRS to track my location.


Ps. I hope I have lost a bit of weight after having meal after meal of porridge. ((:

feared @ 11:04 PM

Damn.. Today's situation for me is kinda terrible. My temperature is fluctuating as usual. It went down to 37.8 degree Celsius then up to 39 degree Celsius. Kinda sucky. I totally lost my voice. My sore throat isn't any better. Today is really terrible cos for a period of time, I was so cold that my finger turned numb and became purplish blue in colour. I was so scared I thought my hands gonna be cut off or sth. Cos they're so numb and I just couldn't help realising that my fingers turned purplish blue. Luckily my sister is a nurse and she knew how to handle such situation. Put my hands into a bowl of warm water. Phew.. My hands are saved.


And.. I perspired damn a lot. So much that I changed into 6 sets of clothes today. Also, my bed is like WET. Gosh. I had to sleep on a towel. >.<


Darn, I am hungry again. I don't really like the soup my mum cooked. I prefer mine! :P Hers like no taste. Hhahas. Cos I added in my love in the soup too:P Hhahas. I was so angry with her for giving my soup to my bro ytd. Somehow I started crying(I'm a crybaby!) and told my bro about it. My brother said that I was very silly cos I could have just told him about it! HEEHEE:P I want my future boyfriend to be someone as nice and caring as him! :P (A little girl's dream:P)


EWW! MY MUM IS SO GROSS. OMG. SHe put the thermometer to measure the armpit INTO MY MOUTH. WTH. SHE DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGISE. WHATEVER MAN. My mum NEVER apologise. SHe thinks she's perfect somehow. I ain't kidding about that okay. Yuck. MAYBE I will LEARN to appreciate her someday, but definitely not now.


Ps. I feel like a little girl today!! :D
To kwok: Woah.. At least I can be a beauty. I want! Hahahas!

feared @ 10:05 PM

Lol.. I am getting hotter and hotter. My temperature reached 39.3 degree celsius before I went to see a doctor. It's my second time seeing one already. This time western. So sucky. Stupid doc measured 38.3 only cos he's using that stupid inaccurate ear thermometer. My sis says the accuracy is plus minus ONE. not 0.1 but ONE DEGREE CELSIUS. -.- Cos I went home measure like same leh. Haiz. If I have a choice.. I don't want to be HOT literally, really. Who wants anyway? Being hot literally is really terrible.


Ps. I've got woken quite a few times while sleeping today by my phone. All smses or phone calls are related to school work. Thanks friends, note my sacarsm. -.- But REALLY THANKS TO THOSE WHO REALISED MY DISAPPEARANCE IN SCHOOL TODAY! THANK YOU! :D

feared @ 11:25 PM

I DISLIKE YOU. I REALLY DISLIKE YOU. WHY CANT YOU SHOW CONCERN TOWARDS ME LIKE ANY MOTHER. WHY CANT YOU. I COOKED THE SOUP ONLY ENOUGH FOR MY OWN DINNER AND YOU HAD TO GIVE IT TO MY BRO.


YOU EVEN TOLD ME TO USE A SEPARATE SPOON TO EAT SOMETHING I HAVE COOKED. AND YOU TELL ME IT’S TOO SALTY. DISLIKE YOU DISLIKE YOU. YOU SAID I AM LAZY, WHAT ABOUT YOU? I BET I’VE GOT YOUR GENES. I DISLIKE YOU SERIOUSLY.


If I ever leave my house, it’ll be because of you.

feared @ 7:46 PM

Damn. I feel really really hot now and that the surrounding is freezing cold. You can see goosebumps on my arms. OH MAN. SOMEONE TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS ARTIC!

feared @ 6:44 PM

I feel really terrible today. Hahhas. My fever is ever fluctuating. Now it's 38.1. ): My sorethroat is getting worse. Seriously bad now. I cant even speak properly. You cant even sense any bit of my normal voice from my current voice, it's either way too low or too high.


This is sucky. I feel like I am missing so many things in school. Troubling ly to distribute the econ tutorial to the class when that's suppose to be my job. Sorry LY! And the money wise, I will ask or even to the extent of begging someone else to pay you first(I mean if I cant make it to school tml), I know you're kinda tight on your hands. Sorry and once again THANKS!


I hope I can go school tml. I want to get my econ tutorial and math lecture notes. I NEEDA START DOING ASAP! Oh MAN. I SOUNDED LIKE A FREAKING MUGGER. :l I kinda like my meal now. I cooked them! I guess that's why my fever aint subsiding.. HEY! It's aint this case okay! :D Cos my mum bought some traditional herb, tomato garlic bread thingy from gardenia and I decided that it'll go nice with spaghetti sauce, so I melted cheese in it. Dip the bread with taht sauce!! Yum yum!


Then I ate this soup thingy which consists of carrot cubdes, potato cubes, slices of sze chuan vegetable, the entire corn chunked into 3 pieces and cherry tomatoes. Perhaps it's soup bah, you just have to be patient and boil it or simmer it under boiling condition and also by catching the duration in case the food is overcooked, then, TA DAH! VIOLIA AND DONE! For mine, it's natural saltiness from the sze chuan vegetable and a pinch of pepper. Hahhas. I LOVE MY SOUP!


OHH! I put lotsa lotsa carrot cos I've decided that my night blindness is getting way too serious! I cant freaking play bball at night. I cant even see who's in front of me. -.- Damn. CARROT CARROT.


Okay. I keep eating, no wonder I feel so terrible right now. I feel as though I haven't slept even though I already slept my whole day away! -.- And I feel so proud of myself, I drank around 9 cups of hot warm today as of now! WHOOOO. But it aint really helping.


I WANT MY VOICE BACK! ): Mommy and daddy says serve me right for falling sick and for not drinking enough water. -.- Thanks folks! -.- RAWRRR!

feared @ 5:59 PM

WAHAHAHAHAHHS! I FELL ILL FINALLY! WOOOHOOOO! FEVER, COUGH and SORETHROAT! YAY BABY! I AM FINALLY REALLY HOT! WOOHOO! HOTTTTTTTTTTTT! :D



Ps. I decline that lady's offer already. I feel like she bluffing me and thinking that I am some gullible little kid. RAWR. I believe in good begets good and vice versa. :l

feared @ 11:19 PM

Okay. This is gonna be hilarious. I was on my way home sometime today and I happened to pass by a certain block of flats. There's this lady looking at me with this bewildered look on her face. She asked me if I were in JC and asked about my current education level and if I were interested to teach her primary 3 son english.


OMG. You must be kidding me! God. A moment ago I was just thinking if only I can earn more money for myself and you gave me such a deal. A rather easy but at the same time hard to manage deal.


ENGLISH.


The funniest thing is, I accepted. I was thinking that since that little kid lives only 3 blocks away from me and that I too have primary school grammer book back at home, why not? Gosh, but I DON'T! I guess I will have to invest in a primary english book and start researching on how the hell, oops.. I mean how you actually teach and manage a little kid. Gosh.


Worst is I charged 100 bucks a month, twice 1.5-hour lesson, 4 weeks a month. My mum was really mad over that. Haiz, guess I would have to "thicken my face", and ask for an increase in my wage to probably 10 bucks per hour. Shi hui said that was the minimum one could ask for. Raise my wage by 20bucks? Oh well. Do I have a choice? When the price of wage falls, the quantity demanded for that particular job will too fall right? Hhahas. Oh well. God! I hope this is not just a dream. A dream that will vanish from reality the moment I wake up tomorrow.


Thank you god for everything! :D

feared @ 11:30 PM

Oh well, probably not many NJC bballers will be online now since we're all so shag after the one day OAC adventure challenge. (: It's really fun walking, talking, eating, being noisy as such a big group of people. Honestly, I never regretted waiting for the rest at pulau ubin. So what if we could have won, seriously, so what? ((:


I have learnt a lesson too. Don't be too stupid to be nice to some particular teams in the race. They will probably follow the bus you take, tell you they are stopping and pasir ris and you finding them still on the bus while you get off at SENG KANG. Then you realise them reaching the checkpoint before you did. Somehow one "kind" fellow from the team could tell you and your friends, " Ehh! Why you all get off just now huh? You all should get off at the next stop and change bus mah. Easier." Thanks brothers. We all love you guys man. Thanks! You can sense my sacarsm, cant you?


Wahhahas! So super proud of 3 people today.


First is GLORIA KHOO. Wahahahs. Congrats on winning 3rd!! ((:


Next up is MABELINE aka mei ben ling(no talent). Hhahas. We realised what's her talent today. Road navigation at the East part of Singapore. YOU'RE THE QUEEN MAN!


Lastly but definitely not the least, ME! ME ME ME ME ME ME! Really really proud of myself. I WASH MY SHOES THE MOMENT I REACH HOME! (Bonus points for me since I just washed the similar pair of shoes 2 days ago-.-) I BATHED. Lol, if this were to be sth I am proud of, that'll make ppl wonder what I always do after training before I sleep:l So that's not sth I am proud of. Erm.. I WASHED MY BAG, SOCKS, SHIRT, BBALL PANTS! :D Despite how shag I am now, I manage to brush my teeth(OH WOW! -.-), clear my bowels, take off my contacts, turn on the computer and blog. Ain't I JUST AMAZING?


LOL!


Whahahahas. Yet another of my all so RUBBISHY post! :D

feared @ 11:37 PM

HAPPY BDAY MARINA! :D

feared @ 4:59 PM

ARGH. DAMN SUAY TODAY. -.- Okay b4 the suay part, everything's fun today. Ice skating with silvia, terrence at fuji ice palace. :DD WAHAHAHAHS! Terrence got a cut. Blood. Eww. If F yona's still in NJ, she'll probably go "OHH! BLOOD! I LIKE BLOOD! SO COOL!" -.-


Okay. Back to the main suay point. WOAH.. I STEP ON SHIT. Some more the design of my shoe makes it more vulnerable to SHIT. ARGH. Cos beneath my shoes have these slabs-liked thingy which allows the shit to embed inside my shoe. OH MAN. DAMN FREAKING GROSS. It took me like damn long to clean off the damn shit. I was so turn off by that !@#$%^* smell that I decided to wash the entire shoe. While in the process of washing the damn shit off, the shit plus mud clog my.. Damn, what do you call that thingy that allows water to flow off.. You get it. Yea. Clogged up that THING. And I had to clean it with my BARE HANDS. CHICKEN BACKSIDE MCNUGGETS !@#$%^&*!! ARGHH! DAMN YOU DOGGY! YOU HEAR ME? DAMN YOU! RAWRRRRRR!


Okay. Maybe I shouldn't swear so much. Cos I don't think I want to end up like YOU KNOW WHO! *Prances around the room* *Noods histerically* Yes. YOU KNOW WHO. WAHAHHAHAS! Yea baby YEA! I am BITCHING. :D Woof woof. OH. Which reminds me, d*** you doggy poo! (Note that I censored it. :D)


WAHHAHAHAS! MY BLOG POST TODAY DAMN RUBBISHY! BECAUSE I AM ON TOP OF A 97251897640265 stories building now! In other words, VERY HIGH! WHOOOOOOOHOOOOO!

Don't give me that face dude! SMILE SMILE! Isn't there this famous quote saying "A smile a day, drives the ugliness away"? OOPS. It was MY quote. Wahahahahhas! Oh well. Who cares about apple man. Talking about apple, maybe I should eat some, it aids in bowel removal. :D


WHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! YOU HAVE COME TO THE END OF MY RUBBISHY 64205167516205 stories (high) POST! :D Have a nice day one head(ahead) peeps! :D

feared @ 8:15 PM

REALLY COOL! TONE DEAF TEST! :D


The LINK

feared @ 10:42 PM

WHAHAHAS! THIS IS ME. SAYING WHATEVER SHE'S SAYING! SO FUN! GIZMO! :D



The LINK.
one more LINK.

feared @ 11:46 PM

NEW TEAM BAG! and us posing with it! MUAHAHAHHAS!




KBOXing! :D



Emo kids...


HAPPPPPPPPPPY! lol.

feared @ 12:19 AM