Friday, March 31, 2006
you only have to make a mistake to be condemn by the world. no matter how hard you may try to salvage everything, you'll never clear away the tarnished image of yours. i've learnt mine.
fish.
i hope i have better memory. so tt pple wont say i do last min work again.
fish.
dear gods. i thank you for all those friends that you've given me when i deperately need one. although they come and left, but they did make an impact in my life. for now, once again, i thank heaven for allowing you to walk into my life. always there when i fall, always ready to catch me with your both hands. your sincerity as a friend touched me. it's reli rare, to see such a nice person like you. even though i do not know you for that long, i tink.. 4 months only right? but thanks for making an impact in my life. thank you((: friends foreva((:
being in love is sweet, but having a best friend is sweetest.
thanks for being my passer by((:
Thursday, March 30, 2006
((:
i feel so helpless. so helpless. my head is so pain. so so pain.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
http://www.myheritage.com/
try it. my best friend from st nicks recommended it to me((: the girl who looks most like me or rather i look most like is not janie tienphosuwan though. but, i'm just putting up her photo cos boonie says i look exactly like her. wahhaha. reli meh? dun tink so leh.. see for yourself bah((: and u can go ahead and try out the link=D
and i really am amaze at how pretty people can get after make up. just look at her, my "look-alike". wahha. mebe i should make up too=D
okay. fine.. i know mine is hopeless case. oh well. happy days=D
Monday, March 27, 2006
whahaha. i siao le. duno wad to blog. dun haf mood to blog these few days. life is so routine. so yea. wahhaha. i am bloggin for the sake of bloggin. whahaha. btw.. i fell into drain again. second time within 2 weeks and i sprain my left thumb. haiz. cool.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
bloody hell. damn sorry to begin my post wif this 2 words. but yes.. bloody hell. i cant believe my eyes. guess no one can understand how i reli feel in my heart. the pain and all even though i can still smile after the getting back of ECONOMICS results. i wun be that sad if i fail maths and sciences. but in the end, i ONLY pass on subject which is the bloody hell math. haiz. imagine failing the worse for your FAVOURITE sunject, i repeat, FAVOURITE subject, how can you feel? to me it's equilivent to cooking some charred stuff. my heart just simply hurts.
scored WORST for the subject i like BEST. now i have absolutely nth to look forward in school anymore. how can i even plan to take business in the first place? damn me. and i realise all those unacceptable ques that ms (what eva her name is) put in her slides while going thru the answers, most of em ARE my answers. cool huh? so wanted to cry but i realise, "fish, what's the point of cryin?" damn. glad that i did not drop a single tear. cos i reli studied like mad this time round. and failed like mad. is2108, ma2103, ih2102. i cant believe i have at least 12 marks of carelessness for ma2103. what's my fishing problem?
FISH.
now i see what's my name use for. to make the F word sounds nicer. too bad i sweared never to use the F word. the real one. 1st letter of Fish and the last 3 letters of dUCK. yea. hahax. oh well.
here's a glimpse of my economics results. and you'll definitely kinda understand why i'm feeling all so shit right now.
Friday, March 17, 2006
great. now my ankle abit swollen. had quite a hard time training this morning! haiz. damn sad. why xin ni can eat 2 plates of food for lunch and damn skinny.. i eat one plate already so fat?? )): and can stay out in the sun for damn long but yet still so fair! just like white gay boy also from bball. haha! haiz. oh well.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
tell me i rock! quick! cos.. i fell into the drain today. haiz.. u noe all those metal covers. den haf larger gaps in betweens all those metal covers. den i dunno how my leg got stuck in between one of those gaps=.= had to pull it out. damn pain can? my right leg have yet to recover from the last injury, now my whole calf is scratched quite badly i tink. )): pain. ankle hurts from tt too)):
lalals((:
i'm hobbling on`*]]
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
confidence.
i had always wished that i'll somehow gain self confidence, then i realised, you have to earn self confidence for yourself. i thought, what's the point of wishing when i don't try to get hold of it. so i told myself, girl, work for it. gain em. gain all the confidence you want. then, i realised, getting hold of self confidence is not as easy as i've imagined.
self confidence.
a thing which i possess when young. possess in the area of academic , singing , leadership , sports, way too many areas in fact for me to list them all. But, as i grew older, i lost them one by one. in no more aspect can i find back my self confidence. academic? hell no. singing? worse. leadership? i cant lead for nuts. terra's in a mess now mainly due to this no leadership skills vice cap. sports? look at my bball skill. damn "PRO" can? please note the sacarsm. my stamina? is worse than shit. i cant stay on the court for more than 5 min in a game. cooking? maybe, but what's the point? what can i be? a chef? so amusing!
somehow i wished, i never had been complacent with my "capabilities". yes in some way, my capabilities, those that i had possessed when young. i wished that i had continued studying, or at least touch my books during the period of lower secondary life. i wished that i had taken all things seriously somehow, and not push my way through things. i wished, i wished, but so what? they had past. gone. never to return again.
if i had a wish, i really had one, i'll wish for myself to return back to my pri 6 days. yes. pri 6. it's when i start getting complacent with my life. i regretted. regretted the path that i've walked on since den. regretted getting myself into all those shit.
i always wanted people to spare a thought for me, but have i ever spared thoughts for em? probably not. i need to learn to stand up, straight. then can i learn to run then eventually fly and soar up high.
my life. a mess`*]]
Monday, March 13, 2006
I AM SO HAPPY=D I SAW GLEN TODAY RIGHT AFTER I TOLD MY MUM. "later i really see my fren here." right after this sentence, glen's face pop out! I SAW GLEN=D
okie. he should be honoured. i made him sound like an idol. fake bf. tell me u r honoured. haha=D oh well. it show rocks((:
Corazon
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
Como te necesito
Mi amor, como te extrano
Corazon`*]]
Saturday, March 11, 2006
WAHAHHAX. i just form a
ABC!!
ASS BUSTER CLUB!
current members:
karwai - president
fang yu - vice president also the founder
silvia
chiansiang
those interested, please contact me through means of MSN. THANKS=D or my tag board also can((: please include your name. THANKS((:
Friday, March 10, 2006
irony of the day
-weeks before ih test-
"huh? ta zai jiang shen me dong dong? ting bu dong la!"
-week before ih test-
"jialat! what's aggregate demand? why can move here move there one?"
-days before ih test-
"walao! what's KA? what's CA? ER? AD?? AS?? GDP?? BOP?? UE?? FP? MP? SP? NRI? WTH?!?"
-day before ih test-
"shit. why so many limitations. jialat. definitions. WHAT HUH?"
-an hour before ih test-
"FP is.. erm.. wait wait. is FP the control of an economy's money suppy or interest rate by country's central bank? EHH.. is that monetary policy? OMG. WHICH IS WHICH? why everywhere also got crowding out effect? WHY WHY?? why so many strokes in the graph? slope? what slope?"
-after ih test on bus-
"i remember when i was in pri school, my school dun allow long hair. so girls either haf mushroom type of hair or the downward sloping kind."
"You know why haagen dazs so ex? must be the demand is higher than the supply that's why."
"You are GDP that G larhx!"
the problem lies here. WHAT'S THE USE OF KNOWING HOW TO APPLY THE TERMS AFTER TEST? )):
"ih? aiya, no need study one! logic!"
-mr ho
quite true, even the terms tells us so.
(some of e below quoted from silvia)
MP? Must Pass.
SP? Sure Pass.
BOP? BOleh pass
NRI? Not Really need Intelligence
ER? Easy, Really!
ALL salts that are soluble are
N ice
N anny
C an
B uy
I cy
S tuff
=D
I LIKE THE SKINNY AUNTIE IN THE WESTERN FOOD STALL! she gives TWICE the amt of fries the fat auntie gives. same amt of money larhx. The fat auntie trying to make inflation on the fries is it? HMMP. oopx. inflation. there i go again! ((:
shall go mug malay=D
WISH ME LUCK =D
Thursday, March 09, 2006
ironies in life. so many. too many. in fact, i cant understand why these ironies exist. maybe that's why it's ironically an irony that ironies exist. the biggest one that i cant understand, i guess, it's me. my actions, my behavior. full of ironies. haiz.
sigh~
Stand By You
Damn you, I think I can feel something special.
Going on, something that is happening 'tween us.
I feel, more than you could ever imagine.
It's so clear, I want you to know...
(Chorus)
I'm gonna stand by you.
If you want me to.
I'm gonna stand by you.
If you want me tonight.
I will stand by you.
Cause I want to be with you.
I'll stand by you (stand by you).
Stand by, stand by you.(x4)
I really wanna be with you,
I really wanna be with you.
Damn you, don't you know it's over together,
Us two, nothing's gonna come in between us.
I know we're going two different directions
Sometimes, but you will always be on my mind.
And if you think you ain't got nobody,
I just want you to know...
I'm gonna stand by you.
If you want me to.
I'm gonna stand by you.
If you want me tonight.
I will stand by you.
Cause I want to be with you.
I'll stand by you (stand by you).
Stand by, stand by you.(x4)
I'm gonna stand by you.
If you want me to.
I'm gonna stand by you.
If you want me tonight.
I will stand by you.
Cause I want to be with you.
I'll stand by you (stand by you).
Stand by, stand by you.(x4)
Cause I want to be with you,
I'll stand by you.
Cause I want to be with you,
I'll stand by you.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
cried 3 times today. not cos of tests. not cos of stress. but cos
i wun be seeing my bro for 6 months.
it hurts to see him leave. haiz. i shall study super hard and show him my results=D JIAYOU((:
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
wo zai zhe shi xiang zui ai de ren shi ni. ni rang wo jue de shi jian shi chong man se cai de. xie xie ni duo nian yi lai ge wo de huan le.
GE! bao zhong le! wo hui hen xiang hen xiang nian ni de! yi lu shun feng.
Monday, March 06, 2006
wahaha. i noe abit crazy to blog at this kinda times. buden i'm mad. i just finish printin those stuff that i wan. so sad. tml is ASS first day. tml is also the day my bro is gonna leave my family and I for SIX damn freaking months. haiz. i hate tml. i so hate tml. )): I MUST REMEMBER TO BUY A CARD FOR MY BRO=D
I LOVE HIM=D
he's e best bruder ever=D (erm.. not the vulgar part though) even though i dun like vulgar ppl, buden, he shall be an exception yea? ((: =D
okie. 5th post. i am mad. jz bathe. i cant stand it. not goin msn. omg. i need to talk to someone! )): AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! )): if anyone wants to like die now, can tell me. i die with you.
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE WITHOUT GOIN MSN!
i'm crazy. 4th post of the day.
mi ahn hae ni gae sang chuh jot dun gut
chak ha gi man ha dun nuh eui ha yan doo bol wi ae suh
noon mool heul ri gae han gut
(I'm sorry for the scars I've given you
Making tears fall down your gentle, white cheeks)
yong suh hae yong suh hae ya man hae yo
geu dae dduh na ga neun gae
na neun nuh moo doo ryuh wot gi ae
nuh moo sa rang haet gi ae
(Forgive me, please forgive me
I'll be so frightened if you leave
because I love you so)
han ddaen geu dae ga nae gyut ae ub neun gae
nuh moo na him ee deul go ddo weh ro woh suh
bi ga nae ri dun nal nan bi reul ma jeu myuh
han ub shi ool ut sut yo
(Once you were not by my side
It was so hard and lonely
that on a rainy day i stood outside to cry)
geu dae reul sa rang hae yo bo go ship uh yo
geu dael man na haeng bok haet dun gut man keum
nae ga yak sok hal gae yo ee jae da shi neun
him deul ji do seul peu ji do an eul guh yae yo
ggok dol a wah jo yo
(I love you, I miss you
I promise to make you as happy as you've made me
You'll never get tired or sad
Please come back)
mi an hae yo jung mal mi an hae yo
geu ri go sa rang hae yo
jae ga ee no rael myut bun ee na boo reu neun ji mol ra yo
ja ggoo noon mool ee na suh
(I'm sorry, I'm really sorry
and I love you
You don't know how many times I've sung this song
and tears form in my eyes)
oh neul geu dae ga nuh moo bo go ship uh
na eui doo son ae nuh eui sa jin eul ggok jwi go
nuh eui ul gool wi ae noon mool ee nae ryuh wa
ee jaen nuh do ool uh yo
(Today, I want to see you so much
I held tight on to your picture in my two hands
Tears fell from your eyes
and now you are crying with me)
geu dae reul sa rang hae yo bo go ship uh yo
geu dael man na haeng bok haet dun gut man keum
(I love you, I miss you
I promise I'll make you as happy as you've made me
From now on, you'll never be tired or sad)
nae ga yak sok hal gae yo ee jae da shi neun
him deul ji do seul peu ji do an eul guh yae yo
(You're coming back
I believe in you)
ee jae neun dol a oh gaet jo
nan mid uh yo sa rang hae
(I love you)
han bun man dan han bun man nal an a joo sae yo
geu dael ee yoo ro
(Once, just once please hold on to me
For that one reason I'll never cry again)
da shin ool ji an eul gae yo
na ae gae neun ma ji mak sa rang ee yae yo
geu dael da shin il ji an do rok gi do hae yo
(This is my last love
I'll pray that I'll never lose you again)
OKIE. THIS IS THE THIRD TIME I BLOG TODAY. I SO FEEL LIKE DYING! I CANT STAND MATHS)): I NEED TO FIND SOME PLACE TO RELEASE MY ANGER. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I SO HATE ASS WEEK. TO THOSE WHO THINKS ASS WEEK ROCK, GO SCREW YOURSELF. I WILL GO CRAZY AT THIS RATE. CRAZY FAT MAD WOMAN AT IMH. )):
omg.... i'm eating like NON-STOP larhx! i had 2 bowls of ice jelly, one nougat, one merci, countless of biscuit(a lot different kind), dunno how many cups of fruit juice, one bowl of cerals (post's maple pecan with syrup) haagen dazs ice cream and dryers. omg.
shit. good luck to me after exams.
OBESE.
it's been so long baby
so many hours so many days
wo xin li de zhe ju hua hai shi xiang dui ni shuo
saranghae o
站在寂寞的舞台上
灯光下拖着自己的影子
音乐重复我们共同的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘明天没有你
in my heart we'll never be apart
残留手上的香味提醒我
在数位相机里留下的承诺
每一封简讯传出的思念
都对你说
saranghae o means i love you
代表着我离不开你
每分每秒每一个声音
只有你撒娇会让我微笑
saranghae o 只对你说
i will love you and forevermore
我答应 baby you will see
每一个我都属于你
oh baby i will love you because
我都属于你
saranghae o.
exams driving me nuts((: hahahx=P I LOVE MY BRO'S IPOD NANO)):
i've been eating ice cream and dessert and biscuit almost everyday! HOW? )):
Sunday, March 05, 2006
| 当孤单乾渴了我
是你开凿了河流
当狂风沙绝望了天空
是你开出花朵
我没说的你却都懂
连最隐密的伤痛
曾经世界就快要沉没
如果你没来复活我
还记得你说你爱我的时候
星空下有温柔的微风
我疲惫的心又开始有梦
再也没离开过
忍著寂寞
穿越最荒凉的沙漠
找到失落已久的绿洲
如果这是生命的尽头
我会微笑著接受
当我找不到彩虹
是你放回我心中
当我遗忘快乐的感受
是你又教会我 |
I love YOU=D hahax=P just feel like saying that=D to someone perhaps((: who deserves my love((: heeheex=P lalalas=D
when i was young, i used to debate against my mum for almost everything. but when my dad scolded me, i never dare to debate. bcos, to me, my dad has always been a respectable person. whatever he says must haf some sense and definitely is right to me.
i realise.. nowadays, my respect for him has somewhat decrease. less. daily.
mr loh has consultation with our class today at 10am. which is nearing. i told my mum about it. den i decided not to go cos i scared i might not understand what mr loh is talking about and then waste my time there. time is precious, especially when ASSessment week is the coming week. so i told my mum i'm not going anymore. my mum just replied in a nice tone that i should go. cos it will help. den my dad ask what's happening, den he started scolding me. says what have i been doing and all. says why people can understand and i cant. and yak on and on.
DAMN ***. what's your problem. you dun even understand what i'm talking about. everyone has different intelligence level. someppl just can understand chemistry so well that once the tcher says, they'll be able to comprehend. i cant. so what? i'm willing to study. and i haven been sleeping well since god noes when. i dream about failing my tests and all and wake up from all these nightmares in the middle of the night.
DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND ME. i thought when ppl age, they tend to be wiser? why is he getting more and more unreasonable? sorry to say, i dont have the same kind of respect i had for you. not anymore. that explains all those debatings i had with you nowadays. you always complain that mum is unreasonable, what about you.
Piece of S***.
and STOP threatening me to sell away the condo. you know what, I DONT GIVE A DAMN. sell if you want. spend all those extra money to buy new furniture, to move house again. stupid move.
DONT force me.
Friday, March 03, 2006
What's Simple Is True
Turn to me with frozen lips
Your hands are icy cold
Your eyes burn bright against the frost-bit sky
You never seemed more lovely than you do right tonight
Pale on the horizon
Like leaves frozen in the snow
Our two shadows merge inseparably
Will time stand still if it's pierced with cold
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
there's a warmth in my heart
It haunts me when you're gone
Mend me to your side and never let go
Say 'Time knows nothing, we'll never grow cold'
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Twilight descends on our silhouette
How soon spring comes
How soon spring forgets
I wanna hold time, say it'll never begin
Old man winter be our friend
Old man winter be our friend
'Cause the more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
What's simple is true
I love,
I love you`*]]
i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. i will MISS HIM. PLEASE DON,T GO
)): my brother's leaving singapore to taiwan in 5 days. to be exact, the flight is 8:10am on 7 March, also my ASSessment week day one. somehow.. i know i'll feel super lost w/o him. last time he goes to tekong for one month, i cry like almost everything when i think of him. haiz. this time it's going to be 6 months.
SIX MONTHS.
sis is now in simlim square. she's buying a white mp3 (ipod) for him. my idea. lolx. really wish that sis will buy me one too=x stupid discman. buy for like 1 year plus onli den spoil liao. shouldn't haf bought discman den. should haf bough mp3! e price is like the same larhx. lolx. 200++ for one damn discman which is usable for only one year or so. haiz. damn.. should haf waited a few years more.
oh well.. sometimes in life, once you've done sth, it'll be too late regretting. somehow, i wish i haven't done anything.. mebe then, i'll regret not doing anything. *laugh everyone* oh well.
`*limps away painfully.~`]]
Thursday, March 02, 2006
haiz.. haiz.. i fell down, flat, on the court today. hate the feeling of falling. my right leg has a big wound now. )): when it heals, it'll leave behind an ugly scar, tt'll remain foreva.
life. there're ups and downs too. down. fall. fail. i hate to fail. but i have never really tasted sucess. how does it taste like? sweet? well.. needless to say. failing is bitter. very. sometimes in life, someone inflict a wound in you and you think that time will make things fade away slowly. but you are wrong. even when the wound is healed, the scar will forever be there, constantly reminding you of its presence. fell. hurt.
but in life, we too learn how to get up. eversince young, the countless times of falling and standing up again, taught us how to walk. sometimes i wonder, where's the courage that we used to have when young? why is it tt when we fall now, it's so much harder to get up? where's that courage? where's mine? one day, i'll learn how to get up without crying. i will.
i've decided to be good and guai and stop goin msn for the nxt few days till ASS week is over. =D
i MUST get B for ALL subjects. YES. B!
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
parliament((: lalals((: so happy((: lallalalalalalals((: i saw someone today((: his initials is GCT((: heeheex=P he's none other than my fav mr GOH CHOK THONG=D wahahhahhahahax=P parliament was okie. not to the extent to make me slp. erm.. i still feel happy catchin a glimpse of SM GOH CHOK THONG=D lalalas. SM LEE KUAN YEW went to hear the debate for 2 minutes and left. within this period of time, he yawned 3 times. lolx. age.
lolx. felt bad. for scoldin "jeremy" stupid person. cos i tot he was holding the door for us, so i said thanks stupid person. den i realise.. it's not him.. lolx. sorry to whoever i accidentally scolded!
oh well.. have been tryin to do my malay project on costumes for the past 2 hours. feel like giving up! my math CMI)): i very sad. haiz. my IS2101, IS2103, IS2108, IH2102, MA2101, MA2103, HCL all cmi. i am so goin to DIE. )):
god bless me.
