i am a good-for-nothing basta*d

feared @ 2:25 PM

i realise.. i onli haf 8 pictures of nice looking guys in my comp. along with 326 pictures of pretty girls in another folder. omg. it's worse than the number of dessert pictures i haf.

=D PRETTTTTTY LADY=D




and a super cute guy=D

btw.. if u were wondering how many dessert pic i haf.. it's 168((: hahax=P

feared @ 9:28 AM

omg.. tell me tt i'm not gay. i love the girl in this clip. DAMN CHIO. =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OiVBOlB_uog&search=xian%20jian

i downloaded at least 100 pictures abt her=x lolx. honestly.. my comp dun reli haf good looking guys pictures.. mebe 10? or less than tt.. buden.. girls.. i've got countless. lolx. mebe i'm reli gay=x or jz tt i like to admire.. pretty pple. hahax=P yea yea. i like looking at pretty girls. honestly. like some perv! hahax=P mebe tt's why i never reli like looking into the mirror since young. mirror nth to see so must see others=x hahax=P my theory! =D

one of her pic=D
you can request for her pics if you wan=D i haf reli LOADDDS=D =x

feared @ 6:27 PM

omg omg omg. guess wad?

I ATE FOUR DIFFERENT TYPES OF ICE CREAM (HAAGEN DAZS) TODAY!! OMG. jared poon treated us. SO HAPPY CAN=D not cos he treated us.. but cos.. it's ICE CREAM=D OMG. den today my mum went to buy super a lot of ice cream. CRAZZEEEEE. i eat 5 times in total! siao one. hahax=P no no.. 5 types of ice cream.

lychee (jared poon bought)
tiramisu (jared poon bought)
green tea (jared poon bought and mei keen loves it)
strawberry cheese cake ( TWICE : cos jared poon bought and my mum bought it too )
dreyers' chocolate mint (mum bought)


i feel extremely fat now. omg. ate ZINGER meal in the afternoon. went for the logic mill thingy. hahax=P damn lame. dunno lehx. somehow it doesn't seems very useful. too basic. the tcher made fun of my name. the first thing he did upon seeing my name was exclaiming " FANG YOU". -.-" lolx. den he told us tt he's got a friend called goh fak yew. lolx. den he joked tt lucky my surname's not GOH. -.-" mr mark nowacki, i will remember you for that=x (surprisingly, i remembered his name) but he and jared poon are really 2 fun guys who lie w/o having to blink their eyes. gullible long fell for their trap dunno how many times can? hahax! ohh.. long is so funny today! we went to kfc to take spoons. i told he "you take 5 spoons, i take 4". so i went to the counter and asked for 4 spoons. within seconds, i've got wad i want. long was still queueing up. he queued for like FIVE minutes larhx. damn funny. as in, where got ppl ask for sauce and den still queue up one? =D stupid long. still dare to say i stupid. =P b4 that, we ordered "take-aways" back to logic mill class room to eat. tt's where and when the fun really start. we were exposed to quite a few more chim stuff bahx. for instance.

mr B has a car. he named it betsy. you see, betsy is really old and all, so when driving on the streets, parts of betsy often falls off. whenever anypart falls off, mr B will replace tt part with another exact same spare part onto Betsy. so one day, mr B realised that after changing so many parts of Betsy, there's actually no more part of the car left originally belongs to betsy. now, there's another part to this story. there's this guy called mr A. whenever a part of betsy falls off, mr A will pick it up and store it in his garage. so one day when he has collected all parts of betsy, he compile em up and fix em into a car.

the problem is.. who's betsy? mr A's car or mr B's car?

happy analysing=D



ohh.. one more.

there's a bank robbery. the robber(s) escaped in a car. there are only 3 suspects, A, B and C.
If B is innocent, C will be innocent.
A cannot drive.

so. can you analyse who's DEFINITELY guilty? ((:



wahahhax=P ICE CREAM=D I FEEL SUPER DUPER FAT! lolx. rahh.. memories. i guess the 3000++ days will never be here. i wish that our relationship never had strained to such a stage, but.. everything's impossible now. girl, dun dream, he doesn't care anymore. wake up and face the harsh reality.

feared @ 3:06 PM

ohh.. btw, to all my dear friends, I'M SAD!! cos i cant go msn till i dunno when. cos my msn spoilt somehow. keep telling me it's not connected to internet. haiz. i missed talking to everyone online! )): guess my loyal comp wants me to do well for tests! =x


ICE CREAM=D

feared @ 12:55 PM

oh man!! i am in heaven now!! SO HIGH=D hahax=P no no.. i'm not on drugs.. but.. i'm eating ICE CREAM=D WAHAHAHX=P dreyers rocky road(the choco ice cream wif marshmallow and nut) with haagen dazs strawberry cheesecake ice cream! OH MAN!! I FEEL SO HIGH=D lalala=P

feared @ 12:35 PM

tell me tt i'm the best! ppl sprain their ankle. guess where i sprain myself. my neck! )): BEST CAN?

feared @ 3:03 PM

lolx. ashame of wad i just did. utterly ashame of em. i will change. dear girl, stop looking back into the past. what's the point? not like anyone's gonna care even if you cease from this world. no one. mebe they will. but for 1 month? 2? life has to move on anyway. so.. stop tinking abt wadeva you've been tinkin for the past few months. stop making urself so miserable.


oh well. bball today is fun((: ran only 4 rounds though. but lucky and unlucky. cant tell you why running little is unlucky for TODAY but can tell ya the lucky though((: cos.. the sun super hot. and i dun like it. ((: so i ran super fast i tink. compared to usual ones((: den i see shade i feel super motivated. but i feel useless, in all bball trainings. i dunno why i just WUN improve somehow. i can run rounds and rounds around the track, but NOT on the court. and i dun see the reason. was too lousy dat i was doing basics while the rest are shooting. i reli dun mind. doin basics tt is. in fact i wan to do tt! reli wanna improve my basics. or rather, learn em.

Mr Sham said he gave up on IPs. i felt reli sad. nearly cried. i am putting in my best but just bcos of 2 other IP1s(out of 3 tt is), he condemn all IPs. he said i am exception. but.. still.. i dunno. i am disappointed. with my juniors. not trying to bitch abt them. but dear juniors. please, please please join bball for the passion but not for the fun. please. where's your passion? i dont even know how to dribble the ball, so dun even mention abt the playing part. but i am willing to learn, to change. are you? please. cooperate wif us. we need your help.

dunno if i shld blog abt this. kinda abit more personal. oh well. thanks anyway. for saying wadeva you've said.


and. i dunno why i am not smiling today even though i jz ate strawberry cheese cake ice cream (haagen dazs) 2 hours ago. god, please send me an angel, to make me smile. a smile from my heart.


with determination, i will perservere on. ((:

feared @ 2:12 PM

god. forgive me for being vulgar. for once at least.


FCUK LIFE.


i cant stand it anymore. all those mugging. sleeping on my desk. and failing my tests. CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

feared @ 3:13 PM

HELP ME REALISE MY WEAKNESSES and GOOD POINTS(if there's any) ((:

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=fFishy):
(for bad points)

http://kevan.org/johari?name=fFishy((:
(for good points) {hopefully, there'll be some=D)


THANKS=D

feared @ 1:42 PM

i find this pic rather cute and SWEET! this pic is dedicated to everyone who loves dessert just as much as i do and a HAPPY BELATED V DAY=X heeheex=P =D

ahh.. strawberry ice cream in the middle! GOSH!!! I WANNNNNN=D

i'm goin out wif silvia on tues=D looking forward to it=D she says she bring me go eat STRAWBERRY CHEESE CAKE! JUST LIKE THE ONE IN MY BLOG!! in case you forgot how it looks like. it's like this.


Yearning for sweet treats once again=D STRAWBERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY (the nicest flavour that god has ever created)=D and others too((: ICE CREAM=D COOKIES AND CREAM=D BERRRIES. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

part 3-------------------------------------------------------


omg.. can you see the sauce!! OMG. I WAN!


COOKIES AND CREAM! my fav larhx!also got sauce! )):

feared @ 7:38 AM

reli scared my internet will somehow die on me again. it died again ytd. revive again today after i deleted one of the programmes which i suspect as the CAUSE of all these. and i was right. luckily((:

road run. clinched 14th in position. improved by 4 positions. onli 4. but somehow.. i feel that i've improved a lot this year. din stop at all((: wanted to cry when i finished the race. personally, i treat this as a personal challenge. and also as a mental challenge. i feel that, running is not enitrely about fitness. but actually more on the mental part. so what if you're super fit? if you've got weak mental, u wun complete the race. but i doubt a person can be super fit and haf a weak mental at the same time! actually, not tt happy wif my placing. 14. never stop at all. last year 18 and i stop 5 times(at almost all the slopes.) it's alright. i shall train harder! with determination, perseverance and diligence, i believe nothing really is impossible.

ran 2 rounds of road run today. once is the real road run, girls' route. the other one is the second route run, j2 guys' route. held a letter "T" board while running! was reli fun! but tiring!! ran wif "E", "R", "R", "A", "!"! hahax=P super funny((: i was screaming the whole way while running=D wonder where i found my energy from. all those fats i guessed. hahax=P

so in total, i completed 4.2km plus 3.6km. ((: 7.8km((: hahax=P felt like a man.

i salute to all those who ran "with their hearts out" somehow. but to those who dun even bother, and walk like nobody's business, tt's up to ur choice larhx. jz hope that somehow, u guys will push urself harder for nxt year's road run(if there's still any). mebe u'll somehow feel more satisfied. it's jz a suggestion((:

and shufang shall be my road run idol((:

terra lost AGAIN. i felt like a loser. completely. i cant lead. a vice cap with no leadership qualities. feel that so many ppl is a or can be a really good leader, somehow, just me. i feel useless whenever i stand in front of terra. i wished i'll be better. a lot better. in leading, in organising, in everything. terra had an unofficial outing on thurs(ytd) night. it was to eat at hwa chong. guess how many j1s turn up. 5. u noe how much i felt like breaking down. how much i felt that i am a real failure. ogls have more than j1s. wad's tt? the whole outing, 20 ppl turned up. a mere 20 out of 200(approximately). TWENTY. why ppl are so enthu abt aqua? why cant i jz make my house ppl enthu abt terra? WHY?


I SWEAR THAT TERRA'S OUTING WILL NEVER BE AS PATHETIC AS THURSDAY AGAIN. OR ELSE, I'm NOT worth being the vice cap.


knew quite a few scholars ytd. 2 by the name of daniel. hahax. damn cool. all chinese but none knew chinese. somehow, tt's a major prob. somehow i feel that, their country is bein unfair to em. why cant chinese learn chinese in sch? mebe tt's one of the few times i feel fortunate studyin in S'pore. hahax=P i realised, scholars are funny ppl(at least those bunch). nice meeting you guys((:

dun feel dessert moody today, so i shant post dessert pictures. but honestly, i still haf a lot more to post. pic i mean. ((:

feared @ 3:06 PM

ohh! did i tell ya i hate and love today? DID I?
hate is cos of..

I SCREW UP DURING THE SINGING THINGY TODAY. super sad. mr sham says we might not be competing in nationals this year. felt worse.

yea yea. as you expected, those wet streams came down again. hard this time. we lost the competition. we lost. not even in top 3. haiz.. we really put in super super super super super a lot of effort. i swear. but tt's wad we end up wif. last 3. yes, terra doesn't haf superb singer, especially wif me around. hate myself for tt. for keep changing the tempo, WITHOUT even realising. malu-ed myself TOTALLY.

I SANG WORSE THAN A CHICKEN BEING SLAUGHTERED.

tt's how bad it is. quote from siyuan: " you've got good voice, but you dont sing well." no no, i'm not bein angry wif wad he said. cos i agree wif him. nt the good voice part though. i am just NOT born to be a singer. or rather, a person wif nice voice.

bball. i reli put in my best. despite gettin scolded by my parents almost everyday for goin home late. (yes, i noe they care. they scold cos they see me everyday stay up till super late n wake up super early.) yes, but still, sometimes it jz get on my nerves. when you get the same old call everyday with someone shouting at ya!

yea. but the happy thing comes in. i haf ZERO air ball today!! =D and.. i improve in my shooting le=D YES YES=D and i din fall down while doing the 3 sets of bridge=D YESYES=D

I LOVE BBALL.

n the most impt part.. MY INTERNET CONNECTION IS BACK! AFTER 2 DAYS=D YESSS!! i tink my comp got virus den i tried super hard to delete. today finally can delete=D YES. and i'm BACK=D to pester more ppl and to post up my DESSERT PICS=D

part 2 tt is=P

ps. DEYAO!! YOU ROCK!! YOU GAVE MY STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE=D SUPER NICE! and karwai! YOU ALSO ROCK! tt is on the day i receive my strawberry cheesecake=D and dun misunderstood, i DID NOT force em in any way=D they're willing kind hearted rich souls=D


here goes, part 2
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feared @ 3:21 PM

the main entry of the month is here!!
wahahahaa.. valentines day coming le.. to all those rich and kind hearted souls out there.. please please please be kind and buy me this.



STRAWBERRY CHEESE CAKE!! please please please!! cos i'll be happy for the rest of the year((:

feared @ 6:54 AM

ahhh!! i dun understand why dessert in pictures looks super appealing to me!! AHHH!! i dunwan to end up in the state of printing em out and eating em!!

downloaded about 100 pictures of dessert. shall share some wif ya!

WARNING: PEOPLE WHO CANT TAKE THE TEMPTATION, please LEAVE now. ((:

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to be continued.. ((:

feared @ 6:48 AM

i've decided. i shall be my angel. i shall be my star. ((:

feared @ 4:29 PM

i must control my temper. i cant be angry. esp over a stupid reason. i must not be angry. if not i'll become fatter. cos being angry makes you fat! )):

i'm smiling! * forced smile *

dear friends. dont be surprise if one day i become vulgar(sth i'm strongly against). cos i've changed. a lot. one day i might jz show my true self to everyone. my dark side. one day, i might not be able to supress my emotion. one day.

i feel lost.

feared @ 3:32 PM

wad if i say i'm sick of those stupid brainless things that i'm currently doing and decide never ever to do those stuff again, will you be happier? and stop giving me that **** up face?


shit. i've become a sadist.


i need my angel from heaven. badly. urgently.

feared @ 3:36 PM

warning: to those entertain no crap ppl, pls do not carry on readin today's entry. i will not hold responsibility for any complains. thank you.

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SO HAPPY=D I SAW MY HOME UNITED NUMBER 11 TODAY!! =D SO SUPER HAPPY! HE LIVES NEAR ME=D WAHAHHAX=P

sadly.. i took 10 seconds to recognise him. hahahhax! was like secretly lookin at him=x hahhahahax=P ohh.. haven intro him. he's my singapore bball running idol((: cos he has never seemed to be tired!! even after the long long 40 min match!!

den they were teasin me. says he smile at me i faint le. den i said. he smile at me, i no reaction. even if he starts strippin i also no reaction. once he starts running den i faint liao=x hahax=P okie okie.. i'm like entertainin myself. cold joke!! ((: den my frenz say look at ppl's leg one they still first time see=x hahahx=P

this is like e first time i idolise a person that i can actually meet!! i mean on street. my hrt was like pumpin super fast! hahax=P too bad i dun haf angelic or pretty or adorable or sweet features. too bad that i blend! i guess my idol will never notice me=x hahax=P actually, i jz wan to noe WHY HE CAN RUN SO BLOODY FAST n NOT TIRED!! after the match, they had trainin. when he finish runnin up n down the court, the rest of the team still half way through. SEE THE HUGE HUGE GREAT GREAT DIFFERENCE?

tt's why he's my idol. tt's why i see him my hrt palpitates. tt's why i go crazy jz seeing him(or rather him running).


MY IDOL!! GIVE ME UR STAMINA=D

feared @ 10:43 AM

river. streams. water. mine. trickled. failure. goner.

feared @ 1:12 PM

if u tink u reli noe me, tink again. r u sure?

((:

went for total defence rehearsal((: din sing as badly as i've imagined((: hahax=P the rehearsal starts at 330 ends at 730. cool huh? reached home 8plus. cos i passed by bball court=x hahax=P eat n all. 9 plus 10. feelin super slack. so much hw. but reli no mood to do. haiz.

IH case study
malay film analyse
malay i cant remember wad
math MA2103
math MA2101
IS2101

feel like dyin somehow. haven met my angel frm heaven though. god! my dear gods and goddesses in heaven! did u manage to catch my prayer? i want my angel.. PLEASEEEEE((:

my frog prince=P hahax=P

feared @ 2:24 PM

i click on the conver, close it. click on it again, see the display pic, and close it again. what's wrong wif me? why dun i even haf the courage to talk to a person who might somehow make me feel happier? someone whom i wish to talk to? why?

useless.

feared @ 2:35 PM

first of all..

BIG BIG THANKS to everyone who showered their care and concern on me! (okie, i'm exaggerating=x) i'm really touched!! hahax=P THANKS((: reli surprise to see some of my friends actually bothered to ask abt me((: yea. in one case especially=x hahax=P

i'm feelin better! YEA((: but still quite weak. cant reli walk for long dist. feel tired super easily)):


tml is the rehearsal for total defence! SADLY, it clashed wif my consultation wif mr tan!!! HOW HOW?? )): mr tan din seem happy! )): i reli wanna do well one. mr tan thinks that i self volunteer myself to sing for the total defence song competition and clash wif his consultation!! )): haiz. i noe we're suppose to feel happy that our grp got into the final 6 and we are goin to perform live on a certain day, buden.. i dun tink i'm feelin v happy. all the clashing plus, we timming nt v good! )): haiz.

mebe my friends are right. i am like super stress recently. i reli wanna do well for my exams. mebe i'm not working smart. hard but not smart equals to everything goes down the drain! )): haiz.

GOD!!! i need help! please enlighten me on how to study smart! and please send me an angel from heaven to comfort me whenever my spirits aint high. THANKS((:
amitofou.

my angel from heaven, whoever you may be, please appear now! ((:

another random pic((:

feared @ 1:43 PM

fell ill. so sad. got mc. sadder. one of my new year resolutions is not to take any mc. haiz. damn sad. but no choice. i will pant even just by standin up. haiz. i hate fever.

random pic.

feared @ 1:54 PM

adapted from an email.

Dementia Test

Below are 4 questions and a bonus question.
You have to answer them instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately. OK? Let's find out just how clever you really are....
Ready? GO!!! (scroll down)

First Question:
You are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What position are you in?



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Answer: If you answered that you are first, then you are absolutely wrong! If you overtake the second person and you take his place, you are second!

Try not to screw up next time.

Now answer the second question,
but don't take as much time as you took for the first question, OK ?

Second Question:
If you overtake the last person, then you are...?



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Answer: If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST Person?

You're not very good at this, are you?

Third Question: Very tricky arithmetic! Note: This must be done in your head only .
Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it.

Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000 . Now add 30 .
Add another 1000 . Now add 20 Now add another 1000. Now add 10 . What is the total?



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Did you get 5000?
The correct answer is actually 4100.
If you don't believe it, check it with a calculator!
Today is definitely not your day, is it?
Maybe you'll get the last question right....

...Maybe.
Fourth Question :
Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene,3. Nini, 4. Nono.
What is the name of the fifth daughter?



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Did you Answer Nunu?
NO! Of course it isn't.
Her name is Mary. Read the question again!

Okay, now the bonus round:

A mute person goes into a shop and wants to buy a toothbrush. By imitating the action of brushing his teeth he successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is done.
Next, a blind man comes into the shop who wants to buy a pair of sunglasses; how does HE indicate what he wants?



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He just has to open his mouth and ask...
It's really very simple.... Like you!

-the end-

AHHH I FEEL EXTREMELY STUPID FOR GETTING ONLI TWO QUESTIONS RIGHT!! )): have fun trying ppl((:

feared @ 1:21 PM

sometimes i wish that.. i can go back time. to the times when i most enjoy myself. to that time..

feared @ 5:44 AM

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

feared @ 12:42 PM

before i start doin something that is worse than anything on earth, i shall blog=D abt wad i did ytd!! =D super super super proud of myself!! =D


I RAN 22 ROUNDS IN TOTAL FOR YTD=D take note! and.. i'm not a canoeist!! so e more i should feel proud! ((: wahahahhahax=P ohhh well. goin to do the similar to commiting suicide thingy now! i got super a lot of HW!! and MATH TEST TML!! )): i dun wanna feel sad again! so i will mug! and of course. i said i'll at least be on par wif someone. YES! ((:

feared @ 12:16 PM

I WANNA CRY)): I JUST REALISED I GAINED 2 KGS!! OMG! TWO!! DUA!! ER!! OMG!! )):

DIET!!!!! )):

feared @ 12:46 PM

BERT!! since you dunwanna post this, i help ya post!!
my dear friend wilbert tedja came up with a super lame thing. (which apparently he thinks was coool! ) wahahax=P here goes=D
lame huh? i'm the stick out tongue emotion and he's the diao emotion! =D oh well. HAPPY DAY EVERYONE=D

feared @ 12:27 PM

I FORGOT TO DO MY LA=x haiz. today no need to sleep liao)): new year forgot to do assignment, does that mean that i'll forget to do my assignment whole year round?? )): den likdat, i hafta start saving money, cos i just lost a eraser on new year=x ((:

I LOVE ECONS=D i wan to take business=D heehee=P CAREER WOMAN=D ME mE=D



I LOVE SYAORAN=D
me and his photo=D

feared @ 9:31 AM

here comes the childish girl again=x cos.. i'm gonna declare my new love=D wahahhahax=P he's SYAORAN=D u noe sakura and syaoran?? YESS!! TT'S HIM=D wahhahahax=P lalala=P new year wif new love((: i shall go download all sakura movie! =D

ohh kiddish me=D

feared @ 3:47 AM