Monday, September 26, 2005
私は行くために割り当てた選ぶ
used a packet of tissue. silly me! ha!
i will be strong. yes i will. one day i'll be soarin high. jz one day.
choices`*]]
Sunday, September 25, 2005
If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.
If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away
thx you! so swt(: *blushh* hahax(:
sometimes people make comments not bcos they tink that particular person behaves in this manner or rather, they made it cos they fear. fear the same experience. fear that everything will cease as it has never appear. fear to lose. fear to feel the same pain over again.
私は混同するある。 だれを私は愛するか?
phobia`*]]
Saturday, September 24, 2005
thx you. reli. a lot a lot. i feel like a sin-er. feel like i'm running away. refusing to face the truth. sometimes, it's jz so hard to catch a puff, to get everything the way you want. sometimes you have to make choices. and not be tentative. it'll jz ruin ur life. tt's sth we learn in MI
premise 1->people have to make choices
premise 2->tentative ppl tend to be failures.
premise 3->i'm tentative
conclusion-> therefore i'm a failure.
lame? quite. jz had MI test. so likdat larhx. hahax.
、私は決定をする必要がある。私は実際になる。
thank you`*]]
Monday, September 19, 2005
my heart v v v v v v v v pain right now. i jz lost the star key chain that i have. though it's not some expensive thingy but i reli reli like that keychain. anyone who happen to pick it up can pls pls pls pls pls be kind and return to me? thx
Ame ni nureta hoho wa namida no nioi ga shita
yasashii manazashi no tabibito
shizuka ni hibiiteru natsukashii ongaku
omoidasenai kioku samayou
yume wa tobidatsu no chiisa na tsubasa de
omoi no kienai basho made futari de tooi umi o sora o koete
kurai yoru no naka de watashi o terashiteru
yasashii manazashi no anata ni
aitai`*]]
ps. can anyone teach me how to upload songs? thx!
i saw my son's blog, he's like thanking everyone. tt makes me reflect all of a sudden, on my life so far.
i dunno how to phrase this properly so tt i wun sound ego, but sometimes i wonder if i am a flirt. or rather do i portray myself as a flirt. forget me, cos i'm nt good. u n me will end up no good. wo zhi dao zi ji hui lian lei ni de.
this year, i found out a lot a lot of bad points about me. n it's reli reli hard to find a single good point. i tried changing, onli then i realise, it's hard to change. jiang shan yi gai ben xin nan yi. tt's describing me bahx. sometimes i jz tink tt yes, ppl are right, i'm damn irresponsible. no wonder pple wun believe me when i reli do sth myself. fortunately, things are getting better i guess. i am becoming a crybaby. anything, everything, i'll cry. i jz cant control. tears trickle down so freely, following the path that they'll take everyday. i want to stop, but i realise i cant. i jz cant. yes, i shouldn't be tentative. it'll ruin me. my life, my everything. sometimes i wonder, wadd's my purpose to be here? am i reli wadd i am? in fact, i'm deterioratin. no improvement at all. not a single bit. why? i remember when i was younger, i was reli smart. no need to study, first in class. but what's happening now? try to study but also top the class. jz that this time is top when u count from the bottom. is it even so hard to attain a 3 for GPA? the whole world has it, why cant i?
i always complain abt my parents n start kicking up a fuss. or i'll complain abt this or that, about almost everything, but have i ever reflect on my own behavior? have i ever stand on anyone's point or view to think?
In my 15 years, there's quite a number of pple who i reli hafta thank.
my parents.
i noe u guys reli care. care so much tt u din realise i dun have freedom. but sometimes i jz cant control my emotion. i'm sorry. i noe i've let u down too many times. too many.
my brother.
u reli rock. though i cant stand ur vulgarities, but you reli rock. u made me understand so many things. in fact u made up wadd's me today. mebe i'm too close wif ya, i like almost everything you like, tt explains everything le bahx.
my sis.
u remember all the small details. for instance my bdae. even when the whole world dun remember or dun give a damn to it. u also greet me even though i jz greet u back coldly or even ignore you.
him.
u made me learn how to appreciate and cherish things i have. how i cant always get things the way i want it and also to look things on the bright side of life. thank you so much. hao gan xie ni mo mo de pei wo yi qi zou wo de ren sheng, pei wo zuo zai wo sheng huo de qiao qiao ban.
kingsly.
u r the best barbie and adviser ever! i dunno how u get to noe whenever i'm down. guess we're reli telepatic bahx! b4 tokin to u, i normally will be reli confuse abt things, but after that, i'll be crappin wid ya once again. also duno how to do that. u reli reli rock!
gloria.
though i onli noe u for less than a year, i feel like you've been my best frenz for thousand of years. you tell me my faults and how i should change them. thank you so much! i still remember that day i cried when i wasn't elected captain, and that you cry silently wid me. thank you so much! guess w/o you, everything wun be the same.
budd.
thanks for always trying to cheer me up and listening to all my woes though u haf more prob than me. thanks for always enlightening me when i cant find answers to certain things. reli hope u can find ur true lurve. jiayou kie?
slivia.
thank you for giving me such a nice OBS trip(: i reli enjoy talkin to you and slpin in the toilet(: so glad that u share your secrets wid me.
3S--> elizabeth n rayshio
you two spice up my OBS trip too. i reli enjoy playin water and splashin at you guys! we're forvea the 2 S n one stupid S! (: n son, thank you for always being there(though it has onli been a week) for me when i'm bored! hahax(: muz smile more kie? n dun sian sian!
loreen.
i noe i'm very stupid at times but you always bu hui ji jiao. reli tink u're the nicest captain ever! thx you so much! i will jiayou as a vice cap de n will stop bein so blur!
my frenz.
i noe sometimes i'm jz not a good frenz. copy hw and everything. but reli thx for giving me a chance to change and accepting me once a again. thx you.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
woo.. mebe it's abit early.. BUT! i plan to slim down 5 KG!! =x cos i'm reli reli reli reli fat now! i dun like! the whole world like have damn nice figure cept for me. i'm not aneroxic cos i'm not at all slim to start off wif. yes! plan to go gym everyday durin hols! run at least 2k bahx(: JIAYOU JIAYOU(: hope to see a slim me when school reopen in 2006=x
hahahhahaha!
slimin madness`*]]
Friday, September 16, 2005
lolx.. so happy(: i got another son(i lagg)(: which adds up to 2 of em now(: supposed to have 3 but i disown one=x lolx. will blog abt OBS some other day=x (i lagg again) 2 S and a STUPID S(now my son) RULEZZZZ=D
ahh.. i'm lame. muz jiayou in my academics. i dunno y. i dun see why it's so hard to get A but i'm like gettin C. WHY? i'm not doin wadeva i can and i should.
gambate`*]]
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
i dunno.. mebe ytd's incident happen too often. so often that we wun mention it the next day or mebe the saying that "fu nu shi mei you ge ye chou" is true bahx. this morning he acted like nth happen again.. but it's alright. it's alright. jc is rite. i study for myself. y should i bother? he's also right. he wans me to be more optimistic. i told him they gave me everything. sadness, anger, phobia, happiness.. he told me to look forward to happiness instead or dreadin abt those unhappiness. mebe i should follow wat he says.
Wadeva.. jz got scolded by my dad.. he’s so irritating. Wadd the hell.shit larhx.. he keep scolding me cos I called him xian sheng.. wadd crap is that. Damn shit larrhx. Den jz nice 3 pple called within 10 min. den he stand behind me to watch me call finish.. wth. I always so suay one lorhx. like i can tell em to stop callin me. and somemore is abt my work. wadd's a phone for anyway? not as if i spend HOURS on it. He always take studies to threaten me. If I do sth wrong den he either say he wanna transfer me out of NJ or jz grop out from school cos I study for wad when i'm dun even have a proper behavior. xian sheng v bad mehx? i call my mum xiao jie b4 lorhx.. as in sometimes u dun tink so much den u jz use the way u tok to ur frenz. wadd's so wrong abt that? and HELLO! Who is the one keep telling me to study hard. and who's the one always askin me to stop studyin cos of some small matter.
i dunno why i'm studyin so hard for. sometimes i was tinkin my parents are right, i shouldn;t let em down, but i realise, they are normally those who stop me from studyin. never ever did i have encouragement. i cant just tell them anything i wan cos i wrong sentence i'm dead. always likdat. hey dad, i'm tired. give me some freedom. let me study.
ibegyou`*]]
Thursday, September 08, 2005
NJC Open House 2005
Come on down to National Junior College's Open
House on 15th October 2005, 10am-3pm!
Lots of fun games, goodie bags (yep, that's right!
FREEBIES) and even a lucky draw plus lots of
student performances and a comprehensive view of
the extensive opportunities and facilities provided
by NJC. A gametrail awaits you...
It's a day of fun and games not to be missed!
NJC Website:
http://njc.edu.sgAddress: National Junior College
37 Hillcrest Road
Singapore 288913
Telephone Number: Tel: (65) 6466 1144
How to get there:
Buses that can get you here:
SBS - 66, 74, 151, 154, 156, 157, 170, 174
SMRT - 67, 171, 852, 961
Nearest MRT:
Newton
So HURRY HURRY HURRY!
=D
